n10 – Plasma and Structures (страница 2)

If memory is erased, a person will not be able to realize anything. He will have nothing to operate with — neither words nor what he will see. He will exist in pure abstraction, yet still possess some molecular memory: how to breathe, how to walk, memory of certain functions. And what he sees, hears, and feels from the first fraction of a second will be what he needs to remember in order to have something to build upon. From that moment he begins self-learning. But how is he supposed to remember that he needs to self-learn if he remembers nothing — as in infancy?

Where does the cell remember that it needs to turn into a human being similar to its ancestors, and then begin self-learning? Perhaps memory from the cell to infancy is autonomous. It is partially an automatic process — partially because the cell grows in an environment. But does the environment have memory? Can memory and function be considered as one? If yes, then what exactly is this function, where are its boundaries? And how many sub-functions are there inside this function, how many super-functions outside? What is their topology? Does self-learning and adaptation always occur?

If one tries right now to remember something, the reason for this will be that the conversation is now about memory, and that reason is association. Association is what resembles the last thing from which thought bounces. But there can be many associations, and the priority one that dominates the others manifests itself at least because of the possibility of its expression through language in time. One cannot express all associations at the same time, but one can express them sequentially. Yet when the first association is expressed, will only those that were remain, or can two or more new ones come in its place? Because time moves on. Because if one thinks about something quickly it will be one thing, and if one thinks for a long time — another. There can be many variants here.

Temperament plays an important role in this context. Many actions might not have happened, but temperament and time do their work, forming orbital patterns of behavior.

If everything is functions and determinations, then they are as complex as cognitive capabilities allow. How to identify categories if questions of this kind are asymptotic?

Linearity is not simple. It is contextual. In the given context, if one looks at anything, it is not only itself — it is a totality, the singularity of these totalities. If what is observed is recognized, it means it is already in memory. Even if it is observed for the first time, it consists of multiple details from memory, is compared and identified instantly. Parts of it connect, forming something partially new. And the way it feels is assembled from such layers as the temperature of the environment, air humidity, the softness of the shoes the observer is wearing, atmospheric and internal pressure, lighting, level of metabolism, clothing, mood, electromagnetic activity, coronal ejections, sounds of the environment, wind, recent and distant events, radiation levels, and how the solar system was formed, potential future, and many unforeseen phenomena — all summed up and singularized into informational clumps acceptable enough to be thought. As well as the unthinkable — through the thinkable. Everything connects into one sensation, which is dynamic.

It is everything in one. It is observed. It can be a landscape. The landscape a person looks at, and the person the landscape looks at — they are one. There is neither subject nor object. This is a point of view through singularity, which can be divided into subject and object — that is, to compress the vision, the act of looking, the sphere of perception, down to a level of more confident orientation within it. Where confidence is knowledge and belief that it is so, and this is enough to live and perform functions with repeating patterns, but also with events and spontaneities. In other words, down to a level striving for automatism — beginning with the cell in the womb, which develops in a sense automatically. This cell is the future person, but he does not control his own development. It is rather determined — a kind of default function. One can say it is a reaction, a consequence, and at the same time a cause — part of a complex domino effect.

Here one can say that the manifestation of memory is the area between cause and effect, movement within the domino effect. And this domino effect is like an interweaving of all spaces, considering that time is part of three-dimensional space. Thus this effect is not only an interweaving of multitudes of multidimensional spaces, but also of times. Where three-dimensional space with conditionally linear time is the result of these interweavings.

If the functions of the cell and its memory of what the next step should be are automatic, then this too is likely the result of interweavings of spaces and times — the domino effect.

It is as if the result of fragmented views. But if one smooths the corners, connects the gaps, rounds and softens them, something formless arises, undifferentiated — water. Perhaps it is plasma. It is asymptotic nothingness. But when differentiations and differences appear, a sphere emerges with internal interweavings of spaces and times. Inside it is three-dimensional everyday life, familiar to the one who is within it. But as soon as the sphere begins to expand and cognitive endurance reaches its limit, it becomes similar to a space with an increasing multitude of everything imaginable — so much that it displaces the subject himself and seems to compress him from all sides. At the same time, the multitudes that compress him *are* himself.

In the opposite case, there is emptying and nothing to hold onto, no supports. The subject disappears, or increases — he becomes emptiness, which is also disappearance, but also dissolution into emptiness. Here the effects of expansion and contraction are accentuated.

The subject rather oscillates within the spectrum of genetic limitations, but with potentials that activate during cosmic synchronicity as well as synchronicity within spatial topology. Simply put, what happens in ordinary three-dimensional everyday life is the result of the rotation of all kinds of triangles and squares in n-dimensions — and vice versa. In their strange symmetries. But if one removes the angularity, the substance plasmizes. The subject, rotating along its orbit, makes a kind of jump to a neighboring orbital, but misses, and is carried away into a galactic arm, where he floats, passes through a plasma cloud. Multicolored glowing plasmoids the size of a ball fly up to him — some smaller. They study the subject, transmit impulses resembling electronic-bio-acoustic signals. One divided into two, changing its glow. Another became semi-transparent and began to grow, absorbing the subject and the others, then scattered into sparks. It seems they are simply playing, but cannot leave the boundaries of the plasma cloud. Meanwhile, the galactic arm swirled and threw the subject back to Earth, where he was born. Only later did he remember where he had come from.

“I arrived here from the galactic arm,” he said.

At that time, few yet knew one well-known fact.

Part 2

Returning back, he noticed something strange to the right, near his feet. It seemed as if a section of the asphalt had distorted. He lowered his head closer and saw himself as a child — tiny, the size of half a pinky finger — looking up at himself in fear and running away between suddenly growing, almost perfectly even stone slabs, each the size of a twenty-story building. He found himself among rocks, but his small double had disappeared somewhere. Moreover, he suddenly realized that his name was the same as that of one acquaintance. He was actually that acquaintance, although he distinctly remembered that the acquaintance had a different name. It was as if he had turned into a person he knew, but with a different name — not his own, and not the name of the acquaintance. He turned around and saw this acquaintance standing there in a hat by a campfire.

Mostly, when he woke up and opened his eyes, he did not immediately appear in the world. It took time for the world to load. He did not remember what happened in the first fractions of a second — something like a transition from darkness to light, a phase-undifferentiated area. It was the same the next day. He did not know what he would say. He met people he talked to, encountered acquaintances. He was born, grew up, spoke, but did not know in advance about what. First came the greeting, then something was said, and then what followed was based on what was said after the greeting. It all happened in the moment.

A person wakes up and does not know what he will say today, what the subtext of the day will be. Sometimes he prepares, waits, then goes somewhere specifically to talk, without knowing about what. The words may be roughly the same, but the order is always different. If he is not a singer or a poet, the order of words tends toward repetition — it circles around one thing. Sometimes he focuses his gaze on what he sees, saying exactly what the eye interprets. It enters the eye and is transformed into voice through subjective filters. The process of speaking includes what does not enter into speaking but is connected with it and affects well-being.