Maisey Yates – Good Time Cowboy (страница 13)

For her life to be more than his creation.

“Sure,” Dane said, reaching out and pressing his hand over the top of his cowboy hat. Then, he lifted it and put it on his head. “Just don’t forget to have fun sometimes.”

“You have enough fun for the both of us, I think.” She tried not to sound bitter about that, she really did. She was pretty sure she failed.

“No one said you couldn’t have fun, Lin,” he said, standing up and moving over to where she was rooted by the doorway.

“I ...” She sighed, feeling defensive and hating that she did. “It’s not the same. For me. You’ve made success out of being kind of a rebel. That’s not going to work for...”

“For someone who wasn’t a bull rider.”

“For a woman,” she finished. “Anyway. I already have enough working against me. I can’t go out and be crazy. I just... I want to make this place so successful that people forget what I used to be. I want to go so far beyond what Damien ever would have done that no one will think of it as something I took from him. Because they’ll know that he could never have achieved all of this.”

“That’s a tall order.”

“I’ve never been afraid of a challenge.”

“Now, that is true,” Dane said. “If you were a rider, the bulls would be afraid of you.”

“Thank you,” she said, not caring if he meant it as a compliment or not. She took it as one.

“You’re scary.”

She sighed heavily. “Thank you. Again.” She edged toward the door and Dane took that as a solid cue.

“See you later,” he said.

“See you.” She hesitated for a second, and then she stepped forward and gave him a hug. “Be careful, okay?” Dane went tense for a moment, then rested an uneasy hand on the center of her back, his interpretation of a hug, she supposed.

“Lindy, I can’t be careful. It’s literally my job to go out and do something stupid now.”

“I know. I love you, Dane. I want you to be safe.”

“I’ll be as safe as I can be.”

He tipped his hat, and she shoved his chest. That was about as sincere as they got.

She walked out of the house, and made her way down the beautifully manicured cobblestone path that led to the main grounds of the winery. A place like this... It would have been beyond her wildest dreams to even visit when she was growing up. Now, she lived here.

The fact that she lived here alone was something she preferred not to focus on.

She took a deep breath, inhaling the scent of pine, the cold, fresh smell of the river beyond the grove of trees that enclosed Grassroots Winery.

The sun filtered through the tops of the evergreens, making the needles look like tinsel. Like Christmas in June.

This place belonged to her, not just legally, but in some real, inextricable way. The way that it wound around her soul, the grapevines entwined with who she was... The exhaustion she had felt a moment before when she had been talking to Dane seemed to vanish. By the time she got down to the dining area, it was gone.

Sabrina’s car was already in the parking lot when Lindy arrived, and she pushed the door open to find her friend sitting at one of the tables working on inventory.

“Taking orders down to Copper Ridge?” Lindy asked.

“Yes, ma’am,” Sabrina said, looking up and smiling. Then, she got a look at Lindy’s outfit and frowned. “You’re wearing jeans?”

“Weirdly,” Lindy said, “it’s only 8:00 a.m. and you’re the second person to comment on that.”

Sabrina’s eyes widened further. “I’m the second...”

“Dane is staying at my house,” she said. “Whatever you’re thinking...stop it.”

“Okay. I was wondering if I had missed more not going out last night than I thought.”

“You didn’t miss anything,” she said.

“We were going to come,” Sabrina said. “We got...distracted.” The word was laden with meaning that was impossible to miss.

Lindy rolled her eyes. “Spare me.”

“If you’re jealous, you could always find someone to deal with your physical frustration...”

“I’m not physically frustrated enough to deal with the emotional frustration that comes with having a man in your life.”

That much was true. Anyway, she was so exhausted she couldn’t fathom trying to make room in her life for a lover.

She gritted her teeth, trying to keep visions of Wyatt out of her brain.

Wyatt Dodge, and the fact that she found him attractive, had nothing to do with that.

“Indulge me,” Sabrina said. “Why are you wearing jeans?”

“I’m going out for a trail ride,” she said crisply.

“A trail ride?”

“I know that you are aware of the route and everything that’s going to be used for the ride that Get Out of Dodge is going to conduct on winery property. But I haven’t actually seen it.”

“So, Jamie is going to take you out?” Sabrina laughed. “I would pay to see you on a horse.”

“I do know how to ride. And, Jamie isn’t taking me.”

Sabrina lifted a brow. “Who is taking you?”

“Wyatt,” Lindy said, trying to sound casual.

“So, you’re wearing jeans. For Wyatt.”

“No. I’m wearing jeans to ride a horse, because a pencil skirt would necessitate me riding sidesaddle. Which isn’t happening. I don’t even think they make sidesaddles anymore.”

“I’m sure they do,” Sabrina said, “but that’s beside the point.”

“No, it isn’t.”

“He gets under your skin,” Sabrina pointed out.

“Yes,” Lindy said, “he does. Because he’s that kind of guy. That cocky, arrogant asshole that thinks he can get away with anything. That thinks a smile and his easy charm is going to cover up any mistake he might make.”

“He’s not Damien,” Sabrina pointed out.

That forced Lindy to compare. Damien’s slick charm versus Wyatt’s rough, down-home variety. Damien would never give a woman a hard time, never tease the way Wyatt did. He’d only lie. Pretending to love, honor and cherish while he snuck around.

She couldn’t imagine Wyatt sneaking.

Wyatt was a full-blown hurricane. And hurricanes didn’t sneak.

She didn’t like that they weren’t as similar as she wanted to pretend they were. Because as long as Wyatt was just Damien in different clothes, it was easy to convince herself she wanted nothing to do with him.

Well, easy was a stretch.

“Too similar,” she said anyway.

“Is there any man you wouldn’t think was too similar right now?”

“No,” Lindy said. “I’m not in the market. Like I said, I have too much to do.”

“Right. I mean, I get you. I was you.”

“That’s different. You didn’t date because you fell in love with Liam Donnelly fourteen years ago, and it never changed. Even when he left. I’m not still in love with Damien. I’m not hung up on him. I’m trying to make my way on my own for a while. When I have a handle on that...then maybe I’ll worry about bringing someone else into my life.”

“A physical relationship doesn’t have to intrude on that,” Sabrina said, looking innocent.