Энни Бэрроуз – His Wicked Christmas Wager (страница 2)

“We can conduct our discussion with Molly on your lap, if you prefer,” she said. “It makes no difference to me.”

“No, it wouldn’t,” he sneered. “You always do just as you please, and to hell with everyone else.”

She quirked one eyebrow. “Really? I rather thought that was your particular speciality.”

He could hardly believe his ears. She was accusing him of selfishness?

“Sebastian and Phoebe want you home,” she said. “The wedding…”

“Wedding?” Molly took a swift backward step. “I ain’t wasting my time with you if you’ve got marriage to some gentry mort in mind.”

“No, Molly, you’ve got it wrong…”

But it was too late. She’d flounced off.

“Happy now?”

He lifted his drink to a suddenly dry mouth, thanking God he’d suppressed any outward sign of how the mere sight of Caroline had affected him. When she’d walked in through the door, in spite of all she’d done, his heart had pounded, his stomach had clenched, and he’d gripped Molly’s leg so hard he’d probably left a bruise.

But she’d only come to deliver yet another message from his brother. So far he’d resolutely ignored all the increasingly impassioned requests to watch Sebastian marry Lady Caroline’s younger sister, telling himself he couldn’t be bothered. But the way he’d reacted when she’d stalked into this hell-hole was a mocking reminder that his reasons for avoiding the ceremony went so much deeper.

Lady Caroline watched him glaring at her over the rim of his tankard as he drained it to the last drop. Happy? She could not recall the last time she’d applied that word to her state of mind. Before the last time she’d seen him, probably. When she’d had dreams of marrying for love, to a man who claimed to love her too.

What a goose she’d been!

“No,” she said bluntly. “But that is beside the point.”

“The point being?”

“Oh, don’t be so obtuse. You know very well why I’ve come. You said as much.”

“That damned wedding,” he snapped. “Do you seriously think there is anything you can say that would induce me to attend that farce?”

“It is not a farce! Phoebe and Sebastian love each other.”

“Love,” he snorted with contempt. “There’s no such thing.”

Her heart, which she’d long since thought immune to anything that anyone could throw at it, abruptly revealed she had been wrong. Once, this man had said he loved her. Passionately. Devotedly. Madly enough to defy the world and create a scandal that would have set the ton rocking on its heels.

She smothered the memory before it grew strong enough to wound her, took a deep breath, and said, “Even if that was true, your brother and my sister believe in it.”

“More fool them.”

She shrugged as nonchalantly as she could. “If you don’t believe in love, what is there to keep you away from their wedding?”

“What do you mean by that?”

“Oh, come. Everyone is saying you mean to stay away because you are still broken-hearted over me. That you cannot bear to see me, especially not at a wedding. But if you don’t believe in love…” She leaned forward, her eyes narrowed. “…then what is the reason you have so far refused to attend?”

My God, but she was a cold, hard woman. Every word had been like a dagger thrust to the heart.

But he would be damned if he let her know just how accurately she’d summed him up.

“Perhaps I don’t wish to waste my time watching my baby brother making a fool of himself over a female from your family,” he snarled.

“And I can see how profitably you normally spend your time,” she retorted, casting a swift glance around the shoddy tavern in which he looked very much at home. “From the rumours abounding about your life, of late, one would think your brother would be glad you have so far adamantly refused to answer his invitation. What man of good ton would want someone like you to darken his doors, after all? A notorious womanizer, gambler, drunkard, and even, if the latest on dit has any substance to it, a man who is not beyond breaking the law.”

“Your point being?”

The lazily lifted left eyebrow made him look every inch the viscount, in spite of the shabby clothing, and the situation in which she’d found him, in spite of the fact that he had not denied even one of the accusations she’d flung at him.

“The point being,” she replied, “that no matter how low you have sunk, your family still care about you. They love you, though you would deny the emotion exists. They want you to be there to celebrate the event with them.”

He knew that! His brother had done all he could to prevent his downward slide. Even when he’d sunk about as low as a man could get, Seb had taken pains to get word to him that the door would always be open.

And part of him yearned to go back.

If only she weren’t going to be there, this wedding would be the perfect opportunity to start mending fences.

“It would mean so much to them if you could just…” She gave him an exasperated look. “…clean yourself up, and pretend, just for a few days, that there is still some remnant of the gentleman left in you.”

He glared into his empty tankard—a remarkably apt symbol of his life.

“Oh,” she said, in such a way that he braced himself for what was coming next.

“It has not occurred to anyone that you might not be able to afford to purchase decent clothes, let alone stand the cost of travelling all the way to Berkshire. Is that the case Crispin? If so, I can give you the money…”

“Damn you, Caro,” he growled, slamming the empty tankard down on the rough table that separated them, his face contorted with fury. “Do you think I would touch a penny of the money that bastard Fallowfield left you?”

“Probably not,” she conceded. “But I had to at least try.”

“Why?”

“You know why. You would not have gambled away your entire fortune, and be living like this if I had not…” She could not look him in the face, any more than she could end that sentence.

And so her eyes were gazing into the fire as he ended it for her, in a low voice that throbbed with hatred. “Shown yourself to be a mercenary, scheming, deceitful jade?”

She opened her mouth to refute the allegations he’d levelled at her before. But would he be any more willing to hear her side of the story now? She’d been a widow for the best part of two years. If he’d really wanted to know the truth, he’d had plenty of time to find her and ask her to explain. But he had not.

Which meant he didn’t really care.

And if he didn’t, then neither did she.

“If I am so worthless, then there is nothing to keep you away, is there?” She smiled at him with the smile she had perfected through the years of her marriage. The one that told the world she cared nothing for its opinion—that, in fact, she rather despised it.

“There is no reason you should not be reconciled to your family. Even if the wedding itself is so offensive to you, remind yourself that it is also Christmas. The one time of year when even someone who has sunk as low as you can be justified for attempting to make a fresh start.”

My God, but she was patronizing. He laughed harshly. “Did you really think preaching me a sermon would have any impact upon me?”

She leaned back and sighed.

“Not really. But I had to try.”

He leaned forward and glowered at her. “You thought you would only have to stroll in here and crook your little finger, and I would come panting to heel, like some kind of…lap dog, didn’t you?”

“No…I…”

“Listen to me, Caroline, and listen well. I am not your plaything. It will take more than a few words and a couple of coy smiles to bend me to your will these days.”

She sat forward, too. “How much more? What would it take, Crispin? What could I do to make you consider putting aside your animosity to me, and travelling to Hatton Hall for your brother’s wedding?”

Stay away from it. So that he wouldn’t have to pretend that the sight of her wasn’t wrenching what was left of his mangled heart out of his chest. If only he could think of some way to run her off, without letting her suspect the truth…

And then it hit him.

And he smiled.

“Well, isn’t that just what I should have expected from you?”

“What?”

But after only a second or two, the lascivious way he was looking her up and down revealed exactly what he had thought she’d meant. He had assumed she was offering herself to him.

And he was interested. For he had that hooded, hungry gaze men got when they were imagining what you’d look like naked.

The hard smile that followed when they started thinking about what they would like to do once they got you into that state.

It didn’t look as though it would be anything pleasant, at least not for her. He was probably thinking up ways he could punish her. For all that he denied believing in love any more, at one time he’d accused her of breaking his heart by marrying another man, after she’d vowed she loved him. And would only ever love him.