Ann Lethbridge – A Family For The Widowed Governess (страница 9)
She frowned. ‘Not at all.’
‘Good. They must like you.’
‘They need more than drawing lessons if they are to be properly educated. They scarcely know how to write their names.’
Another long silence. ‘I must seek another governess, I suppose.’ He sounded unwilling.
An idea popped into her head. A way to get the girls out from under his repressive rule. ‘Why not send them to school? There are several excellent academies in and around London where they can make friends with other girls of their age.’
As a child she had always wanted to go away to school after hearing Red’s stories of fun and companionship. It had fallen to her to care for Petra, Jonathan and Papa after Mama died and she had been needed at home. Her drawing and painting had been the one activity that allowed her a bit of freedom from responsibility.
‘No.’ He spoke with such vehemence she drew away from him.
‘It was merely a suggestion.’
‘I went away to school. I know the sort of high jinks that occur out of the eye of the schoolmasters.’ He thrust his elbow towards her and she set her jaw and once more took his arm. She could not risk alienating him. Not when she needed his money.
‘I am sure you know what is best for your children,’ she said as calmly as she could manage. ‘I did wonder, though...’
‘Yes?’
‘Well, perhaps they might like to go outdoors once in a while. To draw from nature. We could set easels up outside at the edge of the lawn and—’
‘They are better off in the schoolroom. They can see all the nature they need from the windows.’
She bit her lip. The man was impossible. ‘Children need fresh air. They need to run and climb and experience the world. I am not surprised they ran away if you do not give them a bit of freedom.’
He stiffened. ‘I will thank you to leave the decisions regarding my children’s welfare to me.’
She bit back a sharp retort. It really was none of her business how he decided to raise his children.
They reached her gate. The porch lantern she had left burning lit their path to the front door.
She put her key in the lock.
He shook his head. ‘What is your family thinking, leaving you to manage alone?’
How was this his business? Did he think to control her life, too? ‘My lord, I am a grown woman. I manage perfectly well.’ Or she would, if it were not for the man threatening to ruin her life.
The light from the lantern softened his features, making him look younger, and handsome, rather than forbidding. Her insides gave a little flutter of feminine appreciation. She froze. This was not a reaction she either expected or wanted. The meeting with the blackmailer must be playing on her nerves.
‘No woman alone is entirely safe, Lady Marguerite. As a magistrate, I have reason to know this. Walking out alone at night is in itself a recipe for disaster. And, you know, I have a vested interest in your safety. My daughters would not like to lose their teacher.’
With a start she recalled hearing that his wife had been murdered while out one evening alone. And he was not wrong. Only moments ago, in that dark alley she had been terrified for her life. ‘Then I shall be more careful in future.’
He bowed. ‘Goodnight, Lady Marguerite.’
‘Lord Compton.’
She stepped inside, then closed and bolted the door. She leaned her back against it, listening for his retreating footsteps. She had the strangest feeling that he had lingered, waiting to hear the bolt slide home.
Imagination. He had no real reason to care if she was safe or not, even if he was a man who liked to control the lives of those around him. Besides, she would never be safe until she dealt with her persecutor.
Once that occurred, she would also be free of His Lordship’s unsettling presence. He was far too domineering, too strict in his notions with regard to his daughters, for her liking. She could not help but be sorry for the poor little motherless mites.
Perhaps that was what they needed. A mother.
A handsome and wealthy man like Lord Compton ought to have no trouble finding a wife. A little stab of something pierced her heart. What, was she jealous of this unknown female and future wife? Surely not?
As she knew to her cost, good looks and wealth did not guarantee happiness.
When the following Friday rolled around, Jack found himself glancing at the clock repeatedly. The hands seemed to move so slowly, he had actually checked to see if it needed winding. It did not.
He glanced out of the window. The storm from the previous evening had passed through and, while the sky remained overcast, the rain had ceased and the clouds were slowly moving off to the west. The weather should not be an impediment to his daughters’ drawing teacher.
When the clock rang out the hour of two o’clock and then fifteen minutes past the hour and then the half-hour and Lady Marguerite had still not arrived, he began to worry. A cold dark place opened up in his chest. A sense of impending doom.
He fought it off. The woman was late, that was all. Ladies were often late. They made a point of it. And it wasn’t as if she was travelling alone.
The butler poked his head around the door. ‘My lord?’
‘What is it, Laughton?’
‘Nanny James, my lord. She asked if you would visit the nursery. It seems there is a bit of a contretemps.’
Nanny had promised to once more have Lizzie and Janey in their best bibs and tuckers to await the arrival of Lady Marguerite. They would be getting restless. And when they were restless, they got up to mischief. With a sigh, he headed upstairs.
His oldest child knelt on the window seat, looking out. Janey was crying with her face in Nanny’s lap. Nanny gave him a look of appeal.
‘Ladies,’ he said.
Lizzie jumped down. Her hair was a mess, flopping around her face, her expression held defiance and there were tear stains on her face. He frowned. ‘What happened to you, Lizzie?’
‘Janey said it was my fault Lady Marguerite isn’t coming today. I said it was her fault. She pulled my hair, so I slapped her.’
Janey looked up. ‘I punched her back.’ She buried her face.
‘This will not do,’ he said. ‘Ladies do not brawl, they, they—’
Lizzie folded her arms across her chest. ‘They turn the other cheek. That’s what Nanny said. Well, that is not fair. And it’s not my fault Lady Marguerite didn’t come today, just because I said I didn’t want to draw silly circles and squares...’
He frowned. ‘Is that what you said?’
Lizzie shrugged. ‘I wanted to draw a horse.’
‘Circles and squares make a horsey,’ Janey said, though her voice was muffled by Nanny’s ample skirts. ‘Lady Marguerite showed us.’
‘Lizzie, if you were rude to Lady Marguerite, you will apologise,’ Jack said in his fiercest Father voice.
Lizzie’s shoulders drooped. ‘I want to draw a real horse.’
Perhaps this drawing-teacher notion of his was not such a good idea after all. Indeed, it had thoroughly disrupted his household.
‘She said she would come today,’ Lizzie said. ‘So, it cannot be my fault she is not here.’
Jack recalled the rather stiff words he had had with Lady Marguerite last evening. Was it possible that was what had made her decide not to come? If so, it was rather unfair on the children.
‘Did you say something rude to her, Papa?’ Lizzie asked.
Jack winced. The child was far too observant. ‘I don’t believe so.’
‘You did,’ Lizzie said. She poked her tongue out at Janey. ‘See. It wasn’t me. Now
Dash it all. Hoist by his own petard. ‘
‘My lord,’ Laughton said, ‘a note from Lady Marguerite. Peter brought it, just now.’
Jack opened the note. ‘She is not feeling well. She has a headache. She will come next week.’
Neither of them needed to apologise.
‘People say they have a headache when they do not wish to speak to someone.’
Heaven help him. ‘Where did you learn such a thing?’
Lizzie frowned. ‘Mama used to say it all the time. When people came to call who she did not like.’